hi friends! its 8pm on a tuesday and i can’t stop thinking about how upset i was yesterday.
if you’re new to me, let me give you a few must haves, in order for this post to make sense. a few years ago i was diagnosed with two autoimmune diseases. dealing with infertility and endometriosis my body had, had enough… long story short, i’ve had to learn a new normal.
i’m a doer and as a doer i like to get things done, lol… so what do you do, when you can’t do anymore? well, you either believe the enemies lie that you’re a failure, or you learn to give yourself grace… yesterday, i started to believe the lie. i wish i could say the opposite was true, but it isn’t.
so, i spent the evening processing these feelings with my sweet hubby and woke today with a fresh perspective… i’m picking myself up and going to battle against these lies. i don’t want to be defined by my tasks or performance… i’m fighting for freedom in who i am in Him….
here’s how i’m going about that:
first off, my to do lists are limited to 5 must do things each day ( as opposed to double digits)
i organize my tasks in the order of priority and Norah is always number 1
i’ve broken down my household tasks into daily steps vs knocking it all out in a day. (check out Clean Mama to see the schedule i’m following.)
i’m asking God on the daily to help me with my disease of comparison… this is my life and my body and what i do with it, will look totally different than anyone else.
also, i’m reaching out and seeking truth. i’m flooding my mind with who i am in God verses who i am in what i accomplish.
i’m learning to accept a new level of standards.
i’m learning to ask for help.
so that’s the jist of where i am in all of this… some days i feel like my old self and i knock our tasks left and right… those days are still my favorites… but i’m learning to fight for joy in the days when i struggle just to be present. i want to be the best mom and wife i can be and i love being a girl boss and a creative… but, none of these things define me. i’m defined by my creator and He finds me worthy and He loves me no matter what I do or don’t do… so here’s to doing or not doing but knowing you are loved!